Patricia

It has been a while since I last wrote. I'm SO sorry, I'd really missed my blog A LOT, and I got lots of gorgeous photographs I want to show you. But, and I know it sounds like a bad excuse, the net in my house (remember, I live on a boarding school now) has been gone, so I couldn't upload anything until now.

I love my boarding school, the feeling of being a part of something so great, is wonderful. I somehow feel connected to all of those great people, I live with and see each and every day. All of the magical evenings we have together, all the giggling and laughing around the halls. I've been there for some weeks now, but it feels like months. I love my boarding school! And if I'm not posting anything for days, maybe weeks. Then PLEASE be patient with me! I promise never to forget this blog, I love all of my readers and followers, but I have to live my boarding school life! I have to live in the moment.. Kisses and lovable thought to all of you out there, who are reading this.. ! I'll post something again someday soon!

Happy

Tomorrow I'm starting on a boarding school... Can you believe it? TOMORROW! Wish me luck, cause even though the fluttering in my stomach hasn't started yet, I know I'll feel them tomorrow when it finally hits me, what I'm about to do with my life.. I'm so HAPPY! :D :D :D :D :D Unfortunately, boarding school also means that I can't blog as much as I want to. So in the future you guys have to be patient with me and my blogging..

...And about the pictures? Yesterday Amalie and I decided to go for a walk. of course I brought my camera, and these pictures are the result.. You can check her out blog HERE.

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Cheap but precious

I've got this little plastic camera. It feels cheap, like I'll break it just by looking at it. It got lots of scratches and marks. It has a button, which makes a lot of noise when clicking it. It's one of those mini cameras you can see pictures in if you look through the viewfinder. The pictures are grainy and blurry. The colors are weak.. But who cares? It's given me a lot of smiles. When I was younger, I liked to look through it and image all sorts of magical things.. Sometimes I wish I could dream without sleeping. But over the years, it's become so much more difficult to me. I sometimes wish I could have the mind of a child. Just to see the little fairies dancing around in my room.

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Surrounded by the storm

The clouds were big and heavy today. It felt like they were just minutes from succumbing to the weight and drop down. But I'm stubborn. I'd already decided, that I would shoot some pictures today. Why should a little bit of cloudy weather stop me? They never had before, so why now? (Bent went with me) And of course, minutes after the first picture were captured, the rain surrounded us . The beautiful silver drops came down from above, making us soaking wet. Flashes of lightning followed by thunder, were mercilessly rolling across the sky. A cold breeze went through my jacket and made me shiver, but just for a short moment.

I already miss summer!

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Numb

The feeling of being in love. The feeling of looking forward. The feeling of feel. These are some of the many feelings I miss. But I'm numb. It's the worst kind of numbness and I'm afraid it'll never end. Can you imagine? A entire life without feelings. A life filled with false smiles and laughter, mask and lies about how you feel. -Cause you can't feel! Maybe it's just me being melodramatic, but seriously.. It's scary.  There's so many things I should look forward to, so many feelings I should feel. But no.. I can't. It dosen't mean that I'm unhappy, it just means that I'm numb. Even the fire of my passion has turn to ashes. But I hope, and with that I mean really HOPE that if I'll just keep doing what I do, like the numbness never hid me.. It might go away someday.. No, I already know it'll go away, but maybe it will go faster if I keep being me.

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Sixteen

I'm sitting in my room surrounded by candles, a fresh wind slips through my window allowing me to clear my mind. So much have changed since I turned fifteenth. I've improved in so many levels and ways that words can't describe it.. My photography has grown with me, which I hope it will continue to do.. I hope, I will continue to take pictures, even though it at times feels like a complete burden.. Sometimes I really have to overcome the fear of taking horrible pictures, before I can grab my camera and shoot some pictures.. Sound silly? Maybe, but that's how I feel. My camera can be my worst enemy at times, but most of the time (luckily) it's my best friend.

My candles are burning out.. And so is my energy level.. My "sweet 16" is coming to an end.. Goodnight :)

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Slovakia

Sorry for my terrible blogging! I'm going to Slovakia today. No blogging until I get home on 15th July :)

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Out of my mind

I apologize for the bad quality.. It was my first time shooting in rain, so I just had to try and see how it would  work out. Except from that, I was afraid of my camera getting wet.. I ended up with only one useful picture. Enough of the excuses..

Walking in the pouring rain...sigh.. It's like my brain works better when I'm outside. A little rain doesn't bother me at all, actually rain can be a gift from heaven at times.. The clouds are sending us a part of themselves, literally.. Most times it's just annoying though.. Going for a walk is just as big an escape for me as dreaming and travelling. Maybe it's not healthy to escape like that, to just run away. But sometimes you have to get out. When you can't get out of your body, you have to get out of your mind. Sounds a bit intricately maybe.. But I can't describe it better!

I did try to edit this picture in another way, but I liked this picture most.. You can see the other HERE I know it's even grainier than this one.. Soooorry :)

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Flying

I am sitting in my room, waiting for Solveig.. The sky is burning red. Big heavy clouds just passed by, they brought drops of liquid beauty.. Sharing it with those lucky enough to be outside. Supeya is running around doing her rabbit things.. I have survived the exams, now I have a whole bunch of freedom left.. I am free enough to spread my wings, letting the wind carry me away.. Feeling how the fluttering butterflies in my stomach will go wild and tear me up from inside. But yet I am sitting here, in my room. My room with the withe walls and the big old television, with the large mirror framed by even more withe and with light curtains who can not even keep the sunlight out. Why am I sitting here? Me who want to travel the world. Why am I not flying yet?

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Top of the world

I wrote something else here.. But maybe I'm making a bad habit out of redoing my posts... I'll try not to, in the future.. But it seems like my inspiration is a bit to late for my posts...

"I am holding my breath, afraid of losing the moment if I breathe. Everything is so bright.. Why is it so bright? It is like the heavenly sky and the great seas came together and melted down to one big bright light. But it is neither heavens gate of gold nor is it the great crystal droplets of the wild waters. It is something else, something so big, so beautiful and fragile... It is a whole new kind of beauty.. Who thee never will understand.. Only I can see its beauty, it is meant for me.. Some day, when my inner glow develops to a flame of white, we will melt together and travel to the top of the world, a world of lights"

Model: Bent E.

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Sound of silence

Sigth.. Just sigth.. It's nearly one in the morning, and I'm not sleeping.. The big star covered blanked, which covered Copenhagen before, is about to be pulled away and replaced with a red cloud covered sky. I'm letting the picture speak for itself and closing my eyes to the loud sound of silence..

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Waiting

Have you ever been in love? When some crazy butterflies is fluttering around in your stomach, When your body seems to be working against you, every time you're anywhere near that person. You feel like you can conquer the world, like everything is on your side. The sun's shining a lot more, the birds is singing a lot louder, people's smiling a lot bigger. As you might guessed, I'd tried it.. Nothing to celebrate, actually I wished I haven't tried it before.. But I have and as good and wonderful it is to fly, as hard and painful is it to fall. I'm still young, I have a lot to learn, a lot to experience and understand. What if your 'one true love' lives in another part of the world? Or even worse, what if there's no such thing as 'one true love'? I guess you'll never find out, until you meet him/her. All you can do is to wait.. Wait for your 'one true love' ... Or maybe just your love.. 

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Dream

I dream a lot and sometimes I have nightmares too. Did you know that people once thought that it was an animal called a 'Mare', who caused the nightmares by sitting on a persons chest while they were asleep? Pretty creepy, if you ask me. -Anyway, I love dreaming! Dreaming is the only way you can do everything you've ever imagined. It's an escape from reality, it's my favorite state of mind. If you can't reach me, try catch me in a dream.. It's were I'll be when i'm not here.

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One week

One week from now, I'm sitting in my bed watching TV, just as always. I lean back, with a pack of cookies pushing the ash-grey remote buttons. My phone will ring, and I will aenswer. "What're you doing?" "Nothing, why?" "Wanna hang?" "Sure!". I will look in the mirror and grab my camera before I leave and then I'll go.. I'll be free! -No chains, no walls, no nothing to hold me back! A homework-free vacation. The color will return to my face, I promise to smile and laugh at least ten times more than usual! But first I have to survive the exams.. Wish me luck! I'm gonna need it!

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Simpleness

Even though there's nothing fabulous or fantastic about this picture, I think it's the one that would help me get back into my photo-mood... I love the simpleness in the picture, the expression of  Bent, and the colors.. It's encouraged me to get back... But I still have to handle the exams first... I'm looking forward to come back to life as I love it!

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Why is my penguin dripping?

I've been in my creative corner and painted this. I created it today, with nothing to do and lots of paint. It's very inspired by this artist  LORA ZOMBIE I'm not nearly as good as her (not at all!) but I really do like her art! You should check her out, she's brilliant :)


I've been thinking a lot of what I'M good at. Everybody got something they're really good at. Some can sing, others can draw and others again is brilliant at playing soccer. But what can I do? What's my special "gift"? Do you ever wonder that? Maybe I'm just comparing myself to people who's specially "gifted", people who's extraordinary at what they do? Or maybe I just haven't found my "gift" yet. But how do you find something, when you don't know what you're looking for? How would I discover that I'm fantastic at playing piano, if I don't try it? Should I just try lot's of different things and hope to find my specialty? Ohh myyyy goaaat, lot's of questions, no answers.. Story of my life... Anyways... I do know, what I like to do and that's all that matters!

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Art

I'd been passionless about my art lately, even though I'd posted and even though I'd been taking pictures, it hasn't been quite the same. I can't put a finger on why, but I know that it's only temporarily. I'm blogging at night (when I should be sleeping), I'm lazy and tired. Anyway, I will do my best to keep up! Maybe it's just me (already) getting tired of the three six five project? Who knows? .. But as I said so many times before, I'm not going to quit it! Just as well as I haven't shut down this blog.. I want to grow with me, and my art. Cause after all it's MY art..

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Friends

My silly, funny, unbelievable and incredible friends.. Oh how I love them, each and everyone of them. They can always cheer me up. They're always there for me.. Oh how I love them! We were out grilling   today, we wasn't quite planning to grill but we ended up doing it anyway. I don't know where I would be without my beautiful friends, even those "old" friends I didn't kept the contact with. They're wonderful! I love how we're so spontaneous, we just do what we feel like, when we feel like doing it. Like today. It was kind of like: "hey, wanna come out?" "Yeah" "Alright call the others." and later on: "What about grilling today?" "sounds nice, let's do it" (ha ha) - It's great! I know this post has been like an "Oh how I love you" corny-post .. Sorry about that but I really do love them! :) 


I've also got an "annoying" thing to tell you all.. I'm kind of  forgetting my Three Six Five, it's been two days with no Three Six Five posts! I have to, and I mean really HAVE to get myself together.. I will finish it, no matter what! 


I think I better go to sleep now, the sun is beginning to shine?! Damn... I hate when I "forgets" to go to bed!

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Sense of summer

The beach, the people, the heat.. Danish summer! I was at the beach with my wonderful friend Amalie today. People were happy and the weather was just about perfect! We bought some ice cream (twice!) and fooled around by the calm sea. The fact that the water was a bit cold, didn't bother us, we could just run back to the warm sand and bury our feet in it so they would get all sandy. It was great! We shot some pictures, had some fun and ate some ice cream... That's life!

I'd tried to edit the following picture a little different, so I don't feel like it's fitting in with the others. But it had to be a part of this post anyway! :)

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Prospect of insomnia

I can't sleep, so I took some pictures. I'm inspired by everything these days. I see something neat, get an idea and suddenly I've got a new set of pictures on my computer. But ironically enough my ideas never end up, as I imagined them. It's the beauty of taking pictures, you aim for one thing, and hits another thing, but somehow it end up being a lot better than the original idea (not always, but most of the time). I don't know if you've noticed, but I've begun to shoot a lot of self portraits. The good thing about self portrait's is that you're always available to yourself, if you need a model :) Haha.. You learn a lot about yourself too, I can highly recoment it. I've learned a lot these last couple of days, and I've pushed boundaries. I've been half naked in the wood of the making of THESE pictures (the "dress" I'm wearing isn't a dress, it's actually a velour sheet, so I had to wrap it around me - lol) I've been shooting in front of strangers, which was pretty awkward.........  And I've been shooting some friends, which doesn't sound like something, but I had to overcome my fear of a "No way?"-answer.. I'm proud of myself for doing all those things, and I had to admit it: I absolutely LOVE doing a effort for my pictures, and kind of "throw" a part of myself into it, and the fact that I've begun the 365 project, is just helping me being a better photographer. I'm completely in love with my camera, and I want it to stay that way...

Ps. I'm planning on doing that "wow-thing" i wanted to do because it was a thing which "scared" me... I don't know if it makes any sense, but I'm referring to THIS post. 

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